The first time I realized something is wrong with me— No. Hold up. Is it wrong of me to say that? When you break me into pieces over something I created, can I— No. I’ll start over.
Reset.
Words on pages have always been my passion. No matter if I write it or not, it’s something that makes my heartbeat. But it’s never something I can create well. It’s something I get destroyed for, because I’m never good enough.
My dialogue doesn’t meet your expectations. Or some of my descriptions doesn’t make sense, because they’re too abstract. My characters don’t develop enough. Or there’s too many characters to begin with. Too many stories in one. My words aren’t good enough.
But I keep creating, because I’m still the same writer as before. Except I’m worried now. I hesitate to show people my words. I ask them for an honest critique and hide behind a door. I’m waiting for the rejection letter. I’m waiting for the “it was good but…” Just give it to me already.
I get some compliments, but never from other writers, so my brain wonders if they count. I’m not sure they do.
But writers keep writing. That’s all I’m trained to do. Maybe I’ll impress another writer one day. Until then, I’ll add your rejection to my pile.
Copyright © Robin LeeAnn
Robin LeeAnn 
Wow, thank so much for sharing this. I know I been hitting almost every “rejection” wall. Reading this entry just makes me look at it from a different perspective.
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You’re welcome! I’m glad you liked it!
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This has got to resonate with anyone and everyone who has ever written anything.
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I thought and hoped it would.
It was just such a feeling that I kept coming back to as a writer.
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Oh just what I needed to read!
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I’m glad! Thank you!
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I definitely relate to this! My New Year’s resolution is to submit more of my poetry for publication, but it’s not easy to keep up with after a few rejections and a lot of silence.
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That’s my goal this year too.
It’s getting more saddening every time I see how long my Submittable rejection page is. I try not to look at it.
But I’m going to try to put myself out there more this year. Hopefully, I’ll get a catch.
I wish you the best of luck with your submissions as well!
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Thank you? Good luck to you too!
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Rilke letter one to a young poet… spot on.
Stephen
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Thank you!
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🤓🙏🙌🙏🤓
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But writers keep writing. That’s all I’m trained to do…what a beautifully relatable line. For most people getting rejected is the obstacle that prevents them from writing any further, but for all true writers, it’s the journey, not the destination that counts. So what if nobody likes your work, it’s enough that you like it and were brave enough to write it.
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I agree! Well put!
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