I haven’t written a blog in months. How terrible is that? I want to, but I end up writing essays for my teachers instead. My writing is controlled by what needs to get done.
I’ve seen this in other writers before too. It’s our job right? We’re here to make sure everyone’s happy before we let our hearts be free. Even when we write, some of it isn’t for ourselves. It can start out for ourselves, but we share our work with people. We search for the joy in their eyes from our words. It’s for our audience. We’re always on a stage.
I imagine my stage torn up with magnificent creative details in the wood. There are not much decorations but enough to notice. I am off to the side of the stage with broken chains around my wrists. In the center, there’s a mirror pointing at the audience.
I’ve always wondered if it’s me holding myself back. We do direct our time toward what matters the most.
Writing matters the most to me, right? I think about writing all the time. But college is calling my attention more than I need it to.
Robin LeeAnn 
Great post, welcome back! I can so relate. What with work and uni my writing time is often compromised and it makes me feel so guilty. But we can only do our best!
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Thanks! & That’s so true! We can only do our best.
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I experienced this for most of 2017. It’s sucky to feel guilty about something that no one is holding you accountable for. This year, I had to forgive myself (being upset that I haven’t written stuff doesn’t help me write a book) and find a project I was passionate about. I chose to start a completely new project and it’s been a game changer. I hope you find a habit or mindset that helps you feel creative and productive again. I wouldn’t wish writer’s guilt on anyone.
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Yeah, same here. I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. – But the semester is about to end, so I’m trying to find a good balance between writing and college work now.
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I can relate to this!I feel guilty whenever I give more time to college studies and am not able to write.It’s frustrating.
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Yeah, it is frustrating! Hopefully college will pay off though and we can both write more after that.
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Same here! Work and school require so much of my attention, there is no room for my blog.
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Yep! I wish there was a way to equally balance all three.
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